Mum has been up and about today - go her!! she's very tired now though which is to be expected, the pain is still alot but she is resisting the need for the morphine now so thats a good move upwards, sheesh having to re-think all the terminology is hard as I was just about to say thats a good step! Hey it's cool to joke and I can now call her stumpy and get away with it, humour is good medicine so long as it's not over done how ever slippers are now off the christmas list!
Well to be honest with you things have been very busy and I've not had the patience to write much these day and nor do I seem to comment much, I read and report about my Mum and thats it so I have come to the conclusion that I think it might be time to re-think my position in LJ land. It's not a conclusion yet but I may leave...before you all jump on me with the "oh she is only saying that for attention" no no and no I just think it's time to move on. Everyone (you know who you are) that is close to me has my number and vice versa and I keep in regular check ups in MSN so its not much of a lose really, however if there are any of you who wants to stay in contact feel free to add to my friends list on saltedpeanuts123 @ hotmail . com.
Mum had her op today, there was a cancellation so they did it this evening. She is safe and well but this one was far worse than the other although they took below the knee this time.
I arrived at the hospital and she was not out yet so again as last time I stayed in her room, visiting hours were over and I was getting worried at the time she was down there for so asked the nurse if she could find out any info and with that they wheeled her in, oh bless her she was sobbing her heart out, she is in so much pain its unbelievable. She is getting very bad cramp in her toes - er toes what toes? Yes its phantom limb syndrome, just hope that it passes very quickly. *sigh* she will be alright I know its just this one has taken it toll on her and I feel so sad for her.
Well the beginning of her life I hope starts here.
Well Mum goes under the knife again next week now, there was som con flab about whether her leg could actually be saved but they have now decided no it cant, Mum is very pleased with the outcome as she is sick and tired of the pain, besides which she gets used to a life with one leg that is useless for say about six months and then have to come in to have it taken away anyway then re-learn everything and adjust her lifestyle again. Plus also the leg they already took was life threaetning where as this one isnt. This *is* a positive step....pah...no pun intended...to be honest joking about it is good therapy, the fall is yet to come I think but Mum's spirits are high and bubbly and she nags me so I know she is on top form!
Hugs to Karen whose Mum has major surgery tomorrow *lends nails for you to bite hunny!*
Again I thank you all for your support and well wishes.
I've just weighed myself for the first time in ages and I have discovered I have lost a whole stone! Where on earth did that go? I thought I would see what if anything I had lost as I had been told by so many people "you've lost weight", sure my boobs look a bit small (boooo!) and my tummy a wee bit flatter but a whole stone??
Mind you I've been doing alot more walking and running around since Mum has been unwell, plus in this weather I don't tend to eat much and I guess stress has contributed to the loss too. I am about the weight I was when I quite smoking 2 years ago. I don't want to loose too much more or else I will have no boobs left!!
On Wednesday Mum has her right leg taken away. This time they are aiming for below the knee but all depends at the operation just how far they need to go. Mum is doing really well and is coping, she is actually looking forward in the procedure as she will no longer be in pain. Mentally she is also coping well, she says "whats the point in moping around and being upset? It's not going to bring it/them back!" I admire her strength and determination. She has many trials ahead but she will be strong I just know it.
Well Mum's progress is getting better and better, she is far more alert and seems to be coping really well, she is desperate to get in her wheelchair and go outside for a fag!! I don't doubt for one minute she is over the worst yet mentally but she is doing so very well right now. She said "I dunno normally I go into hospital with one thing and come out with another, this time I go in with one thing and come out with a bit less!!"
That's the spirit *happy sigh*
In other lesser news I got my Harry Potter book on Saturday...When I went in the shop about a month ago to order my copy I was asked what cover I wanted - the child's or the adults and in my embarrassment I asked for adult, however all my other books had the child's and was miffed with myself that I couldn't continue the trend! Well anyway I collected my book and quietly asked if it would be alright to choose the childs cover instead and YAY!! My collection matches!!! I cannot believe I wrote a full paragraph on how I got my copy...meh!
Mum is looking more like my Mum again! Her eyes are looking more healthy and not so sunken in, she laughs and makes fun of herself and to a certain extent she can talk about how she feels and knowing she doesnt need to sugar coat things with me. There is now a positive possibility that she *can* keep her right leg but it's not set in stone so fingers crossed and prayers. She is making progress already with physio because she is sat up in bed, they will help her master the art of moving around on the bed onto the side next week and then how to move herself to the chair. She still hasnt seen her ...ummm how do I say this? "none-leg"...yes, I shall say this for now can't come to terms with the other terminology. Mum has alot to deal with yet but she has a much healthier future ahead.
I continue to say thank you ALL for all the support, I apologise I have not replied to you personally so I hope you allow this to be for you all.
Thank you once again for all your support it has been very helpful to me.
Although things are looking good there is a cloud that the other leg has to go aswell, it's not as good as first expected. Mum is feeling a great deal of pain that she didnt feel before as the other one masked it, plus the flubitis has travelled up her leg dramatically so it's looking doubtful that it can be saved, so that will be two above knee amputations but hey life doesn't stop does it guys!! Keep sending them positive vibes as there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Thank you for all your comments, text and prayers they were all received gladly. Mum is doing well and was alert when I left tonight, the operation was a success!! It's all very strange at the moment and but not as shocking as I first thought however its not really sunk in yet.
I would write more but I am tired just wanted you to know all is positive
Well it has come, Mum has had an extremely rough ride and with one thing or another and she ended up back in hospital last night. Well I shall come out straight with it...Mum is booked in to have her whole left leg amputated (above knee)tomorrow.
It's very scary and a shock that its happening now but its a positive thing in the long run coz she will have a better quality of life. Mum is being very brave and I'm proud of her.